i don't know what it is but something is wrong. i sit here feeling that if i go to sleep i will never wake up. my bf is getting more and more annoyed with me and each day i feel as if i should go do what i was ment to do 2 years ago and that was move and mum keeps thinking of kicking me out as we don't get along very well. i still think of skipping off and not tell anyone where i'm going because it would just be easyer on everyone if i did just disappare not like anyone will really miss me that much

ok back to the bad feeling i worry cause my friends fee can't breath very well . my pop is dieing and i'm not aloud to see him. 2 other friends are watching there pops die and i have to help them through that. my ex the guy that raped me talked to my best friend to day and said he really liked her. my bf is getting to the point of not wantting to see me. i feel trapped all the time. i never feel save. school work is getting to me. and i am just at that point of walking away from it all

i know everyone loves me and all but i have gotten to the point of i annoy everyone to much and that there love will not over come that

i will talk again soon
Arianrhod